This is the NICU


  Tiny babies with shiny, translucent skin lay dependent on a wired world while a musical rhythm of monitors and machines fills the air. Here, dim dark corners are lined with incubators in a perfect pattern all adorned with nametags in an attempt to bring some normalcy and personality to the stark hospital world.

Sweet NICU Baby, I Ran for You


  It’s with sad irony that I power up the treadmill in the gym exactly 24 hours after I started chest compressions on you. You were my first patient loss. Being new to the NICU (though not new to nursing), I know you won’t be my last. I forced myself down to the gym to […]

You Teach Me- Simple Life Lessons Learned from Preemies


  Lying under radiant heat, hooked to machines, wires, and tubes; fine thin hair covers your small vulnerable body. You struggle for each breath you take. I look at you and marvel at your strength. Strength not measured by physical power, but by the power to persevere and overcome daily adversities.

Unwritten: Thoughts from a Bedside NICU Nurse


  Darkness gave way to the blue lights glowing in the distance. The hum of the oxygen created a beautiful white noise that seemed almost hypnotizing. The room was surprisingly quiet. Typically the sounds are echoing off the walls but at this particularly moment I felt the peace within the space that sometimes gets lost […]

Your Preemie’s Special Language


  The womb is a warm, dark, and cozy home where the baby spends their days and nights curled up with arms and legs tucked in and flexed. Sounds of the mother’s heartbeat are rhythmic and soothing while the outside world sounds are muffled and muted. Boundaries are formed by the uterine walls and the […]